leadoladle

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Falling For You by leadoladle, literature

The Way You Make Me Feel by leadoladle, literature

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The Way You Make Me Feel

The way you make me feel... Butterflies fluttering around in my stomach, heart racing with just the mention of your name. The smiles that come from your face easily clear away clouds of gray. your random comments bring endless smiles to my face. You make me feel as though i'm floating in a sea of happiness. With each day comes hope, hope that you like me like I like you. I just wish the way you make me feel, will never change.

It's Getting the Best of Me by leadoladle, literature

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It's Getting the Best of Me

Because i cry myself to sleep every night, and dream about everything being alright and the next day i wake up and pretend everything is ok. I just wish i could get rid of these feelings of hurt and rejection out of my mind. Cause they're weighing me down inside, and making me grow cold. I need something to turn out different for once, and to just have all these feelings go away.

Same Old Story by leadoladle, literature

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Same Old Story

It's the same old story everytime I sit at home watching the clock tick by I have many friends but tonight i don't I'm wasting this so called thing called my life. I wish i knew a way that was different but of course i don't my feelings are stored away like a wool sweater on a summers day. They want to come out and play on such lovely days in hope of turning my heart ice cold. It's the same old story everytime I sit at home watching the clock tick by I have many friends, but tonight i don't I'm wasting this so called thing called my life. What is wrong with me? I just don't know why i think so negative all the time. Pos

You by leadoladle, literature

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You

You used to be kind, and fun to be around But now you have changed in all the wrong ways. Your stupidity and arrogance to others has got to stop. We used to be best friends but now we're not. I can't stand the new you, you get on my nerves. You talk about me behind my back and don't accept me at all. I just hope you know that I hate who you've become and hope the old you comes back soon.

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Dreams by leadoladle, literature

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Dreams

Lying here in my dark room. I see the moon light pouring in through my window. All is peaceful around, no howling dogs, no screeching cats, just plain silence. I lie here deep in thought, away in my own world, a place i myself don't know. I'm just lying here trying to find my way, exploring my past, exploring my hopes and dreams. I'm just lying here peacefully. Door squeaks open inch by inch as the wind picks up. I hear screams in the distance. My peaceful moonlight is now gone. I see flashing light, i hear crashing sounds, the rain picks up. A storm has come, bringing me back to reality. I have peace no more.

It's coming closer by leadoladle, literature

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It's coming closer

This evil thing is coming closer. It's in my hand. My strength can't push it away. It's coming closer and closer, And it's getting sharper and sharper. Its sharp edges, Piercing my skin. I fall to the floor. I lie here hopeless, With nothing left at all. Laying in a puddle of blood. I look over at my hand And see this evil thing With its blade covered in my blood. I lie here paralyzed. I can not move. I'm dieing slowly...

These feelings I Have by leadoladle, literature

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These feelings I Have

I do not seem to know how I feel But I guess I’ll have to deal. I can’t figure anything out. I feel paralyzed all about. I’m discombobulated without Knowing why I feel like this. I live each day not knowing if they show How I feel all day at all. I don’t know who I feel at all. Right now All these emotions are starting to take their bows. And now can I go exchange this bag Holding my emotions now at all? I said these emotions are taking all their bows. Good things are now stuck inside evil bags. Those great and happy feelings are long lost. And now All my feelings made me fall.

This Thing by leadoladle, literature

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This Thing

I keep running away from this but every time it finds me. Every time divesting me of everything, everything that i've worked hard to gain back. This thing that bothers me lives deep inside. It creeps around changing good emotions bad. I don't know what I love, and i'm afraid to love as well. For the thing I love most is gone, and with it goes everyone else leaving me behind in a ditch. There is no one left for me at all. I guess this ditch is my new home.

I want to get away by leadoladle, literature

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I want to get away

I just want to get away from this horrible place, But I can't. I can't go anywhere. I'm trapped inside a small room. This room seems to be getting smaller and smaller, And i'm running out of fresh air. Can someone take me away from this place? I have no where to run, And nothing to hope for. These words i speak and hear Make no sense. PLEASE... SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shadow Lane by leadoladle, literature

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Shadow Lane

My Current residence is at shadow lane. It's a place for me to hide, and think about all the bad things. It's a new place for me. Located in Helenland, a new place i have recently discovered. It's a place that holds my deepest and darkest secrets, where all my bad memories live and play tricks on me. Shadow lane is a bad place, and it's also a place i can't escape. I'm abandoned here like a lost child. There is no where else i belong, and there is no one else to help me find a new place. It's my job to conqueror everything that has killed my spirit in the past. And move on to Sunshine Boulevard.

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Second Born by TheBasicFlaw, literature

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Second Born

Front to back, perfect symmetry Looking back, question substantiality Forward this letter, mistakes from you to me Return to sender, mistakes done to her Faces sealed behind glass Turn their backs or blot them black Sealed lips vs. sinking ships So long as no one talks back When the deaf wish to listen and the mute wish to speak Just what do they say? Crown yourself with thorns in the wake Fan the fire and flames and think of nothing else We play this game called Disaster, the rules are a bit like War We play the fanfair, and it’s a bit like strumming out the tones to one or another’s funeral Flash bang memory and co

She Would Forget by NightReign, literature

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She Would Forget

"..and for a moment she s l i p p e d a w a y body pulsing, warmth surrounding her as though she would simply d r i f t a w a y . Heart throbbing, mind pounding as she remembered What she swore she would forget. ..Those white-washed m e m o r i e s ebbing to and fro with her breaths. Pulling her d e e p e r into a world. That she hoped she would forget. And from the dream she a w o k e into the emptiness of her mind f a l l i n g back into the past Seemingly lost within the moments of time That she prayed she would forget. 'Never Will My Demons Haunt M

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Taylor's amazing style...lol by leadoladle, literature

Taylor's amazing style...lol

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United States
Deviant for 16 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: shadow lane
MP3 player of choice: Zune
Personal Quote: "If it's water and it's falling, it's a waterfall."

Favourite Games

Guitar Hero, Rock band

Other Interests

marching band, drum line, softball, bass clarinet, music in general

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leadoladle

May 21, 2008

would things be better?

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If no one cared would everything be easier? Don't worry i know the answer is no cause things would be worse i guess...i know people do care. And some that do i wish wouldn't because i don't need them they've hurt me enough in the past year or so and now i know it isn't as sincere as it was back at the beginning of freshman year when we were best friends and never thought things would ever change but i'm glad they did because i found better people who will always care no matter what and won't judge me on how i look like you did last fall... (this is all mixed up feelings about a person i wish i could just get rid of but can't...isn't about any

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leadoladle

May 19, 2008

in over my head?

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so this past weekend i had to go to my brother's graduation from college (Shepherd University) and it made me start to think about my future and what i want to do with the rest of my life. Though i'm currently only a sophomore in high school i kinda have already decided what i want to major in when i go to college which is music education. But i'm starting to realize that that is a hard thing to major in. It's almost impossible to graduate in under 5 years because of the number of credits you have to take and all that stuff. But at my brothers school (though it is a small school) of about 600 people graduating only 6 graduated with a bachelor

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leadoladle

May 12, 2008

hmm...

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these past 2 weeks have been never ending maybe it's because i can't concentrate and i'm upset over stupid things and kinda sorta a little nervous for drum major auditions (ok i lied i'm really nervous) But uh i think i'll do better then all but one person and that one person is the one i wouldn't mind being drum major and they already know who they are lol.